Sushi motto!

I just recently got a job at a Chinese restaurant/sushi bar called sushi motto. The boss goes to my church so I got lucky. I've been wanting a job for the longest time, I've been begging my parents. I thought I'd be 100% capable of working. This week was my first week there; I was trained on Monday and then I worked on Thursday! I though waiting tables would be easy, boy I was wrong! Thursday was the most stressful day of my life. I was there from 4 to 9:30. It got real busy all of a sudden after only one group of two coming in. I was left by myself for at least an hour until one of the other waitresses called and asked if I needed help. When she got there I was so happy but then I felt I wasn't helping at all. I thought that I was a young adult and I could do it without getting frustrated. I started tearing up multiple times cause I didn't know what else to do there were so many people and I couldn't remember which table got nice order, someone was calling every five minutes for a to go order and I didn't know anything about any of the food. I got home and I just sat in my bed and cried! I was so tired and so aggravated that's all I thought to do. I woke up this morning late and my dad was mad. I couldn't find clothes, I was just making everything a big drama scene. Finally I just sat in my parents room and cried. My dad left to take m brothers to school and my mom told she'd have to take me later so I got in bed and got some more sleep and now I'm feeling great! It just goes to show I'm not as grown up as I thought I was!

Tell me secret!

Every little kids loves secrets, just the thought of knowing something not everyone knows makes little kids so happy! When Jeremiah and Peniel were still living with my family I could get them to do anything if I just made up something and whispered it in their ear and told them it was a secret. It had to be whispered in their ears to. I remember a few times I would try to just tell them out loud cause no one else was in the room with us but they would squeal it had to be in their ear. It probably sounds bad when I say I could get them to do anything, it's not bad though. I would ask them to do things like get me a drink or pick up some trash or just stop being loud, nothing bad. I didn't only tell them secrets to get them to do stuff either, it was just a good method! Sometimes I just liked telling them secrets to see their cute faces light up and watch them laugh. They told me secrets too! I have been thinking a lot about all the secrets we shared.
One time Jeremiah got so tickled at something I just made up out of no where to tell him as a secret. I wanted him to stop singing so loud in the car while we were waiting for our parents to get out of the store. I asked him if a secret would make him be quiet and he agreed. I got close and whispered "Uhh..uhh..uhh...uhh" and he got irritated and pushed me to say a secret. Finally, I just said "Melissa farts in the bath tub!" He couldn't stop laughing for the longest time and he kept asking "REALLY? Does she really?" I just laughed.
Our whole family did the secret thing eventually. We all told ridiculous made up secrets about each other to Jeremiah and Peniel. There has been "Georgia's a ginger troll", "Mitchell eats bugers", just so many weird things. I can't even remember them. We don't do it anymore, without the little ones it wouldn't be the same.

My first time getting pulled over!

I realize that I am way off on this 30 day photo challenge so I just decided to stop. It's not interesting to me and it's just not an exciting thing. I'm too busy to make a new post everyday anyway. I'm stuck on what to talk about in this post so I'm just going to tell a story.
I am sixteen but I only have my permit so I still have to ride with my parents. I still drive every chance I get though. I usually drive with my step mom (basically mom) in her jeep liberty because that's the car I will be driving when I do get my license. My dad has a 5 speed, I do not have the gift of knowledge to drive one. He jokes constantly about when I will learn to drive it.
So, one day Melissa let me drive when we were going to my karate and my brothers wrestling. It's later in the day so by the time my karate is over it's dark and Mitchell's practice is still going on. Melissa(step mom) let me drive to the wrestling and it being dark my lights should be on. The lights are one of those things I will just never remember. I was driving through the square of Dahlonega, it's a pretty lighted place so I could see the roads perfectly fine. It didn't occur to Melissa or me that they were off until we see police lights behind us. I immediately started crying! I did the most terrible job I could have done of pulling over on the side of the road. The police came to the window, I had tears in my eyes, permit in hand and I had no idea what I was doing. Melissa was telling me what to do. "Give him your permit, honey." I handed him my whole wallet. She chuckled and said "You have to take it out of your wallet." I did as she said, still crying. I felt so embarrassed and scared. After he took both our ID's and did whatever police do when they take your license and came back he told me it was ok and not to cry. He was really nice about it. I told Melissa I'm going to need a checklist of stuff I'm suppose to do in the car before I start driving day and night.

December 17

Today is Peniel's birthday. Peniel is one the first kids my family fostered along with his little brother, Jeremiah. I mention them in some previous posts but just in case anyone forgot or just didn't know. I'll most likely mention them a lot in future posts. I love both of them like they're my blood brothers. We had the best times ever and through it all I never even thought about their skin being a different color. My step mom and I always talk about how they didn't seem any different color to us cause we loved them unconditionally. Even if we didn't love them, they'd be the same to us.
On Peniel's birthday last year he turned 8. He chose for us to go out to eat at Ryan's. He got to open a bunch of presents there and I took a lot of pictures. You could tell he was trying to keep his cool but he was excited about all the cool stuff he was getting. After he'd open a gift he'd put on a shy smile and someone would say something and he'd let out his true million dollar smile and giggle. He always had the best laugh, everyone agreed on that too!
Today Peniel turns 9 and I'm sure he is still just as adorable as the last time I saw him. The first time I met him and his brother I knew they'd be heart breakers when they got older and I still believe that. They both have a smile from heaven and laughs that can melt anyone's heart. They are outgoing and funny, they could make anyone laugh. Anyone who ever meets them is instantly in love with them.
I promised Peniel when I can get my license I would come see him. I promised that the last time I saw him and I honestly can't remember the last time I saw him. I only have atleast five more months till I can drive myself to see him. I always worry that when I see him again our bond won't be the same but then I think on it and remember he loved me just as much as I loved him, there's no way he'd reject me. Our bond was made by God and is as strong as it can get, no matter how far apart we are so however long.

WHY ARE YOU YELLING AT ME?!?!

This week the drama classes at my high school had their Christmas play or plays. It was three little plays put into one. It just so happened one of my best friends was is in drama so I just had to go to support her. It was on Friday and Saturday night. My boyfriend, Seth and I had planned to go on Friday. I went ahead and bought a Friday ticket just to find out he couldn't go. I still went though on Friday but I also went on Saturday with Seth. Friday I sat with Andrea's mom and little brother. Andrea is my friend in the play and let me add she did a great job! She is actually inspiring me to do drama my junior year! Anyway, since I sat with her mom and little brother I was automatically paying more attention to what was actually happening in the play. I got the full message pretty much. We left after the second play though so I didn't get to see the last one. I heard it was boring though so I wasn't that upset. On Saturday though I sat with Seth and Andrea's "guy-friend", Chance. Seth and I hadn't seen each other since Friday, that's a long time for us so we were excited to see each other. We did what we usually do when we let our excitement out, we play fight. We act like we're mad at each other when we're obviously not, we playfully punch each other(not abusively at all though), we basically just play around, act goofy and make fun of each other. It doesn't last the whole time we're together though, we get serious and act like civilized people after some time. So, we sat watching the play, waiting for our friends to show up on stage and we'd exchange smiles and silly comments. After the second play ended I told him I was going to get Andrea but he told me he wanted to stay so I said I'd stay with him so he wasn't alone. We sat and talked and waited for Andrea and Chance to come back. When Andrea came back I told her how good she did and she asked me questions, the whole after-performance deal. Then, I was just being silly, not trying to be a crazy girlfriend and I was acting like I was gonna look through Seth's phone and he made a big deal about it so I took it upon myself to look through it. It really stirred up a fight and he was yelling at me, in public! I couldn't believe it, he never yells at me and here he was, the guy I've become so close to who has the biggest heart I could imagine yelling at me in front our friends and people we didn't know. I didn't even know what to say after some time though I managed to croak out "Why are you yelling at me?" I began to tear up and of course he felt bad and he told me he didn't realize he was really yelling. There was really any I'm Sorry's or are you ok now?'s When the third play started I didn't understand anything that was happening and I told him that so he was keeping me updated on what was happening, that's what broke the ice of our some-what argument. I am so thankful that I have someone there for me like that. Someone that doesn't hold a grudge against me and is willing to understand me and take things to heart and not make everything a big deal. I'm a really lucky girl!

Silly games.

I've been sitting on the computer for about 20 minutes and I've already caught onto my brother's trivia game. Cody, 19, Mitchell, 13 and Samuel 11 are taking turns asking the other two questions which they themselves find difficult. Of course I don't understand anything but I still decide to blurt out what I think the answer might be. They ask questions about cartoons they watch, books they read, countries, math problems, themselves, our county, etc. All three of them get on my last nerves, especially when I am trying to have quiet time. They scream about Mitchell liking girls, Samuel biting his gym teacher on the butt, things that wouldn't matter to anyone else. They still tend to argue on until I finally come to out of my room and yell for them to hush. After that, they try to whisper, in a really loud hushed tone. They seriously think they're being quiet though. Even though they annoy me to no end sitting here listening to their nonsense I realize how precious they are and how different I'd be without them. I've grown up with these boys, they defend me and comfort me in times of need and sorrow. I've seem them all at their worse and vise versa, we're still hear for each other. I only hope I can understand their questions soon so I can beat them at trivia games.

11 Pipers Piping.

This morning Samuel's fifth grade chorus had a show on the square of Dahlonega. Melissa, him and I got into our jeep liberty (our only car that's only been in the shop once) and we went to the square. I was feeling as tired as ever but I still wanted to go and see my little brother and his classmates sing cute christmas songs. On the drive there Samuel rambled about how excited he was and how he couldn't sleep last night due to his excitement. He is so cute! When we finally got there Samuel jumped out and Melissa and I went to find somewhere to park. After finding somewhere and walking to the spot where all the little fifth graders and their parents were gathered around I thought "I really hope this doesn't suck". I could tell all the kids were excited. They were all wearing matching shirts, santa hats, reindeer ears, and bells on their wrists. It was all so cute! The first song they did was Twelve Days of Christmas, each kid had their own line. There were 13 kids there total. When it was each kids turn they sung their line and did a cute hand gesture. It came to Samuel and he said in his fast voice "Eleven pipers piping" while he make the movements of a flute with his hands. It was so precious. As I watched these kids sing carol after carol and enjoy themselves to the fullest I realized what a joy singing and being involved with things are. The kids cut up and sang their hearts and jingled their bells. When it was all done I was happy I got out of bed and dressed myself in sweet pants and a sweetshirt to see this show. After it was over Melissa asked Samuel and me if we wanted to go the fudge factory to get some fudge, of course Samuel right away blurted "SURE!" We walked over the store and as we walked in we all got a big whiff of all sorts of sweats. Samuel walked around joyfully trying to decide what he wanted while Melissa and me simply decided we wanted hot chocolate. While we waited we cut up and talked about coming up Christmas Plans and old memories. We entertained the lady working there every so often when we told a funny story. Also while we were waiting I asked Melissa if I could drive home and she told me I could so I immediately couldn't wait to leave. We drove home and Melissa didn't have to help me once, which is good cause usually she has to remind me of things. That was all in about two hours, but it was still a good morning I got to spend with my fabulous step mom and adorable little brother!